Summer, I knew thee well
I love summer! It’s my favourite time of year and I basically wait all year long for it. I am more social, happier and just generally not as grumpy – I think it’s the sun shining on me, all the time! I’m just visibly happier when it’s around, really.
But I’m kinda down this summer! I’ve essentially forfeited my wanderlust and fun to work, and work hard. I even backed out of a cottage trip with my family (in retrospect, I’m glad I did it now – DRAMA!) to work! I feel like such a grown up, and a crotchety one at that! #GrumbleGrumble.
I’ve been working 4 jobs this summer, along with attempting to study for my LSAT, dating, and being all around social. It’s been hectic. I noticed in the last couple days, that I really truly need time off if I’m to be productive. My weekends are now jammed with work, my evenings spent trying to balance my friends, my budding yoga practice, and freelancing, but all in the name of one thing: moving out. I have made it my goal, finally, to move out, and I am trying to do it with out any help from people, most importantly, my father. I feel like although I am able to get help, I shouldn’t so readily take it, fruits of my labour will be much, much sweeter if I put in the time and effort for myself, don’t you think?
So for now, as sad as I am inside about not being able to go away anywhere, not being able to party my socks off with my friends or even, not even have time to just laze around with my sister, I’m remembering that the sacrifice I am making right now is going to get me what I crave the most – freedom and growth.
To make up for lack of travel, I’ve been just going through old pictures from my last amazing summer trip, the one I took in 2010 through Europe. Here are a couple shots of me in various cities. I’m dreaming of a beach right now, friends. The blue, cool water, the warm breeze… the alcoholism. I love, and want it all. I’m hoping that through hard work comes good things, and that next summer, I’ll be lounging in the sun, maybe trekking my way through Latin America or even India. But until then, I’ll just revisit my past travels, wistfully longing for the touch of that warm summer air and the taste of another country on my lips.
Hope you’re all having a wonderful Sunday!